Shadow Humanity

If you are looking for love,
you won't find it in me.

The more meaning you take off your life,
the less involved you become,
you don't just care,
why would you care if it doesn't make a difference?
while perhaps your conscious self is doesn't get involved in your life,
and just tries to enjoy itself in anyway,
the one handling most of your actions will be your shadow.
Your shadow is an instinct-based entity, part of your unscious-self.
That's why you will make mistakes,
and you will harm those around you,
your conscious self is so entwindled with trivial issues and the quest for pleasure,
and relief from pain;
that your shadow controls important part of your life.
The shadow imposes its need on you,
Suddenly you feel the urge to feel something, pain, lust, mere momentaneous things.
But your taste for a lasting pleasure has been gradually destroyed,
you do not hunger for knowledge, you do not wish to learn,
you do not wish to exist beyond a second in which you do not feel pleasure.
you are unable to deal with pain.

We live in a Shadow world,
ruled by instincts, we hunger for instant satisfaction.

Please search for (XI-)Strenght within you to supress your shadow,
to control it.

We are a Shadow of true humans.

You have a choice, either summit to your shadow, let it swallow you, lose yourself in the pleasure, lose your future for a mere hedonism, or try to tame your shadow, supress your instincts, try to act for the greater benefit, get rid of your desire for power, get used to the idea, that you will suffer from loneliness all your life. Because when you are in control, you will have to face such dilemmas, that's what it takes to tame your shadow, you have to deal with the usual problems of being an individual entity, eternal loneliness and mortality.
... but of course...
you already knew that, didn't you?
Why should I care you say?
Because it's your choice, you can take active measures to live your life, or you can get so busy with other shit and lose a lifetime.

I'm but a mere residual self, I can only exist when the shadow within me falls asleep.
I'm what's left of my humanity on this moment। Trash.


If I were to die someday, you can be sure it was my shadow that killed me.
I'm not able to kill myself, I can tell for sure ...
But my shadow...

My persona.
My self.
My shadow.
My death.