Machine!

I want to be a machine,
and I'm achieving it little by little.
I no longer know how to ease this sadness.
So I choose to escape it,
by becoming a machine.
By losing all my feelings,
Emotionally, Sexually, Mentally...
I work on logical basis on a 73.1%,
I have an error rate of 27.9% due to a defective module.
But why, why, if I am a machine, why!?
What is this?
ERROR
Let me search through my memory files.
Let me search in the net.
Search concluded.
This is...
a Tear.
Humans cry.Therefore I'm a human, even though I don't like it.
To doublethink, to forget I was ever human, to forget forgetting I was human, and so on. To live within an infinte loop.
To live as a human pretending to be a machine that tries
to understand humanity.
...
...
...
I'm a machine that is for sure, so why do I still fail to understand mankind?
The human "soul" is that which is not logical.
Non-logical process are handled by the "soul".
Thats what I can tell from the data I've gathered.
And I try to mimic the soul; which I lack not only as a machine, but also as a human, that why I became a machine. To look for a "Soul".
...
...
...
I fail to understand.
Module corrupted...
Module missing...
In the end, I'm nothing but a failure.

Hollow.
Empty.

Give the food to turn me into human.
Give the escape to this mask.
Give me freedom,
the freedom of self.

Give what I need to be human again.

If I can't grasp it,
if I can't hold it with my bare hands then...
I will burn it,
I will burn it with the flames that ignite my soul,
or the void where it should be.
I will burn it with the raging flames of hate I've carried this far.
Burn!
Burn! Burn baby burn!
Burn the horrible memories!
Burn the lovely memories!
Burn the bittersweet memories too!
Burn everything!
Burn Myself too,
lose myself in the flames of hate!
And gain by this, the freedom of self.
The so desired freedom of self।

Whatever it is love, freedom, etc, or none or all, it's up to you to decide.
Or whichever is more convinient for you, because that's what humans do, they believe what they want, always.