Thursday, 22 August 2013

the commented code

the one night, the last night
the night within the dream
the last goodbye within the dream
the last time you talked to me
the last letter

and on it, there was only :

and the waves,
the ever black waves of coffin still wander aimlessly on the sea.

When will they reveal their contents?
That day will come,
and by then I will have lost my mind,
every bit shattered,
every shard of my mind,
sharp as a knife.

Monday, 18 February 2013

ocurrence

"This... is as deep as the sensation of what is real and what is a dream.
...
Within reality you ackowledge it as completely "true" and logical, within a dream you do not compute logic, and there's no truth that isn't hidden in cryptic messages(metonymy being a favourite of Orpheus), delivered by an owl with a man's body.
Reality is an illusion with-out itself.
..."

Saturday, 3 March 2012

As I lie here,
anxiety ever consuming,
I hunger.
No matter what god I seek,
no matter how deep I go,
no matter how much I run,

the goddess is now here,
the goddess is nowhere!


Oh! 
My memory still holds that, 
I still remember the universe...
I saw the universe in those eyes.
I saw all I needed ever,
I saw beyond the scope of my eyes.

I fear that vision will never present itself again...

 Nothing ever ends... the universe creates form from form, 
the all creating void...

わたしはひとつの王国そのもの
すべてがこの中で眠り目覚めて
流れ 続く
 
 I am the one kingdom itself
Everything sleeps within me, and awakens
Continuing to flow

anagarma
.
And as we lie you say:
Will the world end in the night time?
I really don't know...
Will the world end in the day time?
I really don't know
And is there any point in ever having children?
I really don't know

No puedo sacarme esos miercoles a la tarde de la cabeza.
anagarma


Sunday, 29 January 2012

" ...cuando vi ese bicho extraño que exhala humo,
supe distinguir el patron absoluto.
La dialectica de universo se abria para mi.
Y hable el lenguaje que expresa la permutación de todo lo que ha sido, lo que es, y lo que sera."


Dara, Luc.

Monday, 23 January 2012

Hizamazuite Ashi wo Oname

Sunday, 18 September 2011


"...
At the end of a life that has meaning, the point is not that one is

perfected, but that one will still carry a view of self and the

world that is divine—and not just some kind of lazy drift. The
point is to have enough stories that guide —that will allow life's
closing act to end with one's heart still bright, despite the gales
that have passed through it —so that it can be said that one has
lived with spiritual audacity.
..." 
Joseph Campbell, The Hero with a Thousand Faces.


Yesternight, I cried.

Monday, 25 July 2011

3rd Night

of successive dreams.
*1 or perhaps--- it has to do with your boyfriend sharing my same interests.
What's worse of all this, is not the dreams, but the fact that every bit of information you provide, are things I've already checked out, as if your mind and mine are somehow arriving to the same information in a strange delayed way.*1


And you keep appearing, haunting me. I am haunted by my own mind, with a external image. Bount to that image...



Sunday, 15 May 2011

recaida#1

Sigo teniendo recaidas, las llamas del presente solo hacen saltar mas alto las sombras del pasado.
Ya no necesito mirar tanto tus fotos...
Se que tu recuerdo me trae todos los sentimientos que puedo tener.
Solo quiero oir tu banjo reverberar en respuesta a tu recuerdo, quiero libertad, quiero volver a sentir la intensidad de esa vibración.
En la oscuridad extender mi brazo tocarte la cara.

Me encantaria hablar con vos, Laura.
Pero no estoy listo, cuando sea el momento cuando la funesta fecha caiga, haré el viaje, solo.

Solo puedo confiar en que tengas tantas cosas en tu vida para evadir el dolor como yo. Eso me gustaria pensar, pero no puedo evadir la sensación de que no lo necesitas, que adolesces nada por mi, blah blah blah, puedo seguir hablando, pero tengo tarea, mucha, siempre. Es lo unico que tengo. Tarea.

Saturday, 27 November 2010

in my dreams
we fly away from all the pain and schoolbelt bridges (sic)
... and i can see you smile all day...
somethingabout shoes(?)

Friday, 26 November 2010

wisest words

you can stop me from killing myself.
you can't stop her from killing me.

Friday, 5 November 2010

My little Sailorette

I want to tell her so much, yet it wouldn't make no difference, for she has sailed away; my little Sailorette has moved to another port, and alas here my infertile land stays, waiting for the tide to come back; and the wait bitters my spirit to oblivion, and I enjoy the sickness unto to me, for I feed on it, and my resignation has crushed my spirit and I dwell upon it, and drink the putrid drink one more time until my lungs are soaked in it, I can't but punish myself for it's the only thing I can do.

And so on, and so on, and so on, and so on, until the I am drown by the tide again.

Thursday, 28 October 2010

Gods

they shall bringeth forth the end.

Heresy shall doom us all.

Why did you worship the statue?

Tuesday, 18 November 2008

Los amantes.

Harux y Harix han decidido no levantarse más de la cama: se
aman locamente, y no pueden alejarse el uno del otro más de sesenta, setenta
centímetros. Así que lo mejor es quedarse en la cama, lejos de los llamados del
mundo. Está todavía el teléfono, en la mesa de luz, que a veces suena
interrumpiendo sus abrazos: son los parientes que llaman para saber si todo anda
bien. Pero también estas llamadas telefónicas familiares se hacen cada vez más
raras y lacónicas. Los amantes se levantan solamente para ir al baño, y no
siempre; la cama está toda desarreglada, las sábanas gastadas, pero ellos no se
dan cuenta, cada uno inmerso en la ola azul de los ojos del otro, sus miembros
místicamente entrelazados.

La primera semana se alimentaron de galletitas, de las que
se habían provisto abundantemente. Como se terminaron las galletitas, ahora se
comen entre ellos. Anestesiados por el deseo, se arrancan grandes pedazos de
carne con los dientes, entre dos besos se devoran la nariz o el dedo meñique, se
beben el uno al otro la sangre; después, saciados, hacen de nuevo el amor, como
pueden, y se duermen para volver a comenzar cuando despiertan. Han perdido la
cuenta de los días y de las horas. No son lindos de ver, eso es cierto,
ensangrentados, descuartizados, pegajosos; pero su amor está más allá de las
convenciones.

Juan Rodolfo Wilcock~

Monday, 27 October 2008

there.

it's not so hard to trust, is it? now I know it's not.
even in the end, even standing on the edge,
even when the Absolute Wave is falling upon us
I know there was one day, one Sunday
when we were gracefully caressed by Lady Happiness.
i love you [:

Monday, 22 September 2008

笑み.

i stole the smile from your face
and now im obliged to return it.

i'm sorry, but by my foolishness,
it has been worn out.

is there any way you can take me as your smile from now on?

Wednesday, 17 September 2008

Tuesday, 16 September 2008

Her Oblivious Love: 12

I wake up.
He's asleep.
Who knows what he dreams...

"I can only hope he dreams about me.
I will blindly hope my love will fix him.
Make him capable of love again.
Make him human again.

I can only hope,
that once he's human again,
he'll love me back.

Dear,
I'm unable to give life,
my body is sterile.
I'll never feel the morning sickness,
I'll never rejoice of the movement within,
I'll never experience the pain of childbirth.

I'm unable to give life,
to a new human.

But if I can fix you,
if I can make you love again,
then I can give you back your life.

The Sorrow & The Joy,
all these feelings you give me.
These are my trials,
my morning sickness, my pain, my life.

My life is yours,
My beloved...
Live.
Live.
Live once again.

Allow me to give you my life.
Let me play the mother for this once.
Just before my life fades,
Let me love you."

Tuesday, 9 September 2008

His Drifting Now: 11

"Caress,
Hurt,
The cyclical nature of reality makes me sick.
I puke.
I had a beautiful.
One of those dreams, where...
you fall in love.

But... when you wake up, you realize it was just dream.
You weren't even able to say goodbye properly.
You wake up to the reality,
you are not loved,
you have no love!
you have noone!

Have you had a dream like that?

And...
After the dream, were you able to love again?
Being unable to properly say goodbye...

Even in dreams, things are so fragile.

But, this, this this, this, this love.
Stands any injury.
So is this a dream or not?
Tell me dear."

I caress her cheek while she sleeps.

"Are we part of some beatiful dream?"

Monday, 4 August 2008

Her Skin:10

"you are going to kill me"
"you are going to kill me"
"I still don't understand your pain, please don't let me die."
"I love you"
"but"
"you are going to kill me"

"Shall I take my love to the grave, shall I let it rot with my skin, and be devoured by the worms?"
"My dear..."
"you are going to kill me!"